Yesterday afternoon, I had a phone conversation with my
nephew. He told me his suitcase was packed to come to “West Birginia” for
Turkey day. He then proceeded to tell me that he would like for me to have
treats in my suitcase when I picked him up at the airport. He doesn’t fully
understand that I won’t have a suitcase at the airport but at two years old he
has fully mastered the understanding that when I come to “Hutsie’s” house-I
come with a suitcase packed full of bare necessities and numerous treats for
him. Even though every visit to Houston is filled with massive amounts of high
fructose corn syrup and my heart explodes with overwhelming happiness when we
eat ice cream from the carton, share cupcakes for breakfast, or sneak guppies
(known as fruit snacks to the rest of the world) upstairs before bedtime, my
favorite treats are his artistic masterpieces. I know that my sister is the
mastermind and driving force behind most of my Hudson masterpieces but his
scribbles and stickers are his own personal touch, his own way of making me the
most blessed aunt on the planet. I have kept every piece of artwork he has ever
sent me in 2 years and I love them all beyond words but during my last visit,
he painted me my absolute favorite masterpiece to date. We were at the Houston Children’s
museum and while he was painting my sister asked him what his picture was
called. His response, “I love aunt Jay Jay.” Yes, I am proud to say that I
cried in a crowded museum in front of God and everybody as soon as the words
left his mouth. And I am proud to say that no one could ever love that little
dude more than his Aunt Jay Jay.
Despite my increased ability to draw trains and railroad
crossings (Hudson’s favorite things), my artistic abilities rank pretty low on
my list of talents. If you’ve ever seen my drawings you would support my claim
that I won’t be producing masterpieces anytime soon. But my (and your) very
existence is a masterpiece created by God. He is the mastermind and driving
force behind every part of my being. He knows my inmost thoughts, fears, and
desires. He knows all of my faults, failures, and shortcomings. He knows every
hardship I will face; every situation I will overcome. And he knows every
painful scar of my heart. I wish I could be proud to say that if you saw the
canvas that God saw, you would see a beautiful masterpiece, but you wouldn’t.
You wouldn’t because I have put my own personal touches on my life. I have
splattered my canvas with sin, shame, fear, anger, pride, resentment, and
bitterness. I have left stickers and scribbles I wish I could permanently
erase. I have allowed the stains of worldly opinions outweigh the saving grace
and redeeming blood of Jesus. I have allowed my tattered version of myself be
the framework of my life opposed to allowing God to make all things new. I have
viewed God’s most skillful, intricate, beautiful artistic skills like black
paint stains on the Mona Lisa. But despite my attempts to ruin God’s
masterpiece, He still loves me beyond words. He still wipes away every “ugly”
area of my life and puts His own personal touches on it. He uses what I once
saw as permanent vandalism to his beautiful creation as a way to show Himself
off through me. He takes every one of my poor artistic talents and refines it
until I see exactly what He sees. The refining process isn’t always enjoyable
or as short as I would like but necessary in order for my life to be a
testimony of who He is. A testimony that despite what I see or more importantly
what the world sees; I am God’s masterpiece. It’s easy to be defeated by the
world’s view of who we are and it’s even easier to take yourself down the “you
are a no good dirty bum” road in your own life. Satan finds great delight in keeping us from
who we are in Christ because quite frankly he’s scared to death of the power we
will come to know once we realize who we are in Christ. It takes strength and a
genuine relationship with the one who created you to understand that He loves
you in spite of your poor artistic abilities. To understand that we may see
scribbles but the one holding the paintbrush sees a masterpiece. To understand
that we may have to wait until the day we meet our maker/artist to stand in awe
of the finished masterpiece. But to me
the wait is worth it because I know God is proud to say in front of everyone,
no one will ever love this little dudette like He does.
Saturday afternoon, I will show up at the airport with a bag
(or suitcase) full of numerous treats for the most fabulous two year old in the
galaxy. To him, it will be system overload as he sifts through all of his
favorite high fructose corn syrup snacks. To his parents, it will be a reminder
to buy my future children ten times as many treats and the beginning of their
“you are going to give him diabetes” speech. To me, it will be moment number
six zillion of favorites with my main squeeze. My main squeeze, Jesus, whose
greatest artistic masterpiece to date was fearfully and wonderfully creating me
to be my favorite everything’s Aunt Jay Jay.
Verse to remember:
Ephesians 2:10 For we are God’s masterpiece, created in
Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
Psalm 139:14 I praise you because I am fearfully and
wonderfully made; your works are wonderful. I know that full well.